New Year's Dreams.

{This post have been published before, but because of some technical errors, has to be republished}

I always was too pessimistic to make a detailed new year's resolution; but as next year is 2013, which when I will graduate from high school I suppose I should make one.

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I wish I can study harder, so that I will get outstanding grades when I graduate

I wish I can be accepted in Gadjah Mada University's International Relations

I wish my relationship with my family will improve; and that God will bless us with His strength, protection, and affection

I wish my friends and you, dear Readers, will have His bless on the future

I wish that He will give me power to always do good things to the world; to be joyous and give joy; to be peaceful and make peace; to be successful and share success.

I wish that I will always do good.

Amen.

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December 26th, 2012

LICHT und SCHATTEN

LICHT und SCHATTEN

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Photography, MUA, and Stylingby Akib Aryou

Akibaryou, NOW.

Welcome to akibaryou.blogspot.com,

the officially renewed akibbernyanyi.blogspot.com!

Well, this is exciting! Finally the voting time is over. I want to thank you guys who have taken your time to read and vote; and for encouraging mentions in Twitter. I feel honoured to have your compliments. Your supports are priceless! For those who have given their critiques, thank you for your wise opinions, I will note that :)

So, as you can see, the vote have answered the question. This blog's URL is officially changed to akibaryou.blogspot.com! I promise that I will post more, at least constantly. Also, as what I have said in the last post, I will post my first photoshoot experimentin 19.00 GMT+8. I hope this photoshoot will only be the first, as I am going to have some other experiments this holiday season.

In the end, thank you so much for your votes! Keep on reading A Warehouse and follow the blog! Check out me on Twitter, also.

Thank you and have a great holiday!

Akibbernyanyi, Akibaryou.

If you guys pay attention carefully, you will find out that this blog's URL is no longer akibbernyanyi.blogspot.com; but had been changed to  akibaryou.blogspot.com.

Yes, it is now all 'Akib Aryou'. With the change, I finally answer my question in 'Comeback. No?'. I was questioning myself: will I continue this blog; or shut it down and start a new one? But months had passed since; and at that time, I had myself thinking. I always embrace my history. What I am today is a metamorphosis of that then-me.

This blog is the record. I had started this blog at 2008, when I was in the 8th grade. At the time, it was named 'Gudang Saya' which means 'My Warehouse'. My old posts, when I read that again lately, was totally, in Indonesian, alay. Corny and cheesy. I remember that I said to myself, 'Crap, how could I make such silly posts?'

But, that was my history. I was silly, I was corny; I was cheesy. That is a part of my history that I cannot erase. Moreover, I realized that I don't want to erase it. Why? Because I want to remind myself who I was; and how I changed, slowly, through years that came. I ever said to my bestie, "We need alay to overcome." We need to be awful, to make mistakes; so we learn to be good, to do something right.

First posts of 'Gudang Saya' maybe are some of the worst posts in the blogosphere. But since that, I have learned how to write better. Though I started it with no focus, it helped me to build my own point and expanding my perspective; and with that, creating my own style. I changed and this blog helped me to. It will be totally ungratituous to shut this blog down and erase all records of my teenage metamorphosis. So I have decided: I am keeping this blog and will continue writing. 

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Yet, I know that this blog need to be renewed. Neither of 'Gudang Saya' nor 'Akib Bernyanyi' reflect the way I am today. We need to refresh this warehouse! And I am not a stranger to the word 'makeover'. Even since junior high school, I developed a public personality which first known as Rococo Hearts. Since that, the alter ego had gradually metamorphosed.

2010, as Rococo Hearts.

 2011, as Rococo Vanguard.

2012, better known as Vanguard.

Now, we are heading to 2013, and this blog needs to be renewed. But how it will be renewed? What wil be the name?

I looked back to the late years. Since 2011, I became the high-school announcer in JogjaFamily Radio for the teenage program Zona Pelajar (click JogjaStreamers for radio streaming). When I first joined the radio, my program producer, Kak Dira, asked me, what will me my nickname for the program?

I started to think quickly. I knew that I will not use any of 'Rococo' nor 'Vanguard' as my nickname. That would sounds strange yet unfamiliar. Somehow, I wanted to embrace my original name, too. I wanted to be recognized by people who had known me before I joined the radio. I mixed my original name and that's it: Akib Aryou. This may sounds narcisstic, but I love that name. I want to keep my history, but I want to give it my latest touch. I am not going to destroy a temple; I am retouching it. With the name, I did not leave my original name; it is just being refreshed and given a dynamic touch. I use that as my radio nickname and in every designs, every artwork that I made since.

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So it had been decided: I will use the name for my blog. The times of akibbernyanyi.blogspot.com had gone. It is now the time for akibaryou.blogspot.com. 

2013. Akib Aryou.

It will mark a new beginning for this blog as I am going to revitalize this A Warehouse. I will post articles more often and you can expect that at least, there will be a new post every month. Also, I had found my answer for Someday, Today post. The most important thing is not starting things big; but start things now. So, next year I am going to experiment more on making photoshoots by adding a new type of article labeled as Photoshoot.

Still, I am open to opinions. I know that not all of you agree of the URL's change, so I will be happy to know your opinions on it. If you support the change, please mark the 'keren' block on the Reactions panel below this post. If you disagree with the change, please mark the 'aneh' block instead. You can also add your comment for further explanations. The voting will be closed at Wednesday, December 26th, marked with the publication of my first photoshoot. (Just don't get shocked when it have been posted, please, hahaha.)

Well, that is the end of the story. Please forgive me if this long, long post bores you. But still, vote your opinion, please. :)

Thank you for your time and attention. The voting is officially opened! :)

December: Anniversaries

Joyeux anniversaire!

This is December, the month of anniversaries. My parents and my sister are having their birthday in December. My sister at 12th; Mom at 16th; Dad at 21st. Whoops. Got to empty my pocket and spend every pennies I have for the presents.

Whatever. Afterall, these are birthdays; so we had to celebrate it! Well, not really celebrate: the Javanese term is syukuran, be gratitude to God by sharing meals to others. In our case, we had a dinner tonight (December 16th, 2012) with our closest neighbours and friends to celebrate Mom's birthday. We ate at Phuket, a Thailand cuisine restaurant. We invited my old-bestie Merlyn and her family! It had been so long that I met her, miss her and her family so much...

Merlyn and her family came even before we arrived at the venue. Well, my impunctuality is genetic. They brought a peanut tiramisu for my Mom. It was really sweet... and smells nice. Really nice. And it was from Breadtalk so... You know what I mean.

From left to right: My beloved Auntie Nining; my Dad, he got a real cool haircut lately; my Sister (unseen); my Mom; Tante Dian, with her white-framed glass; my neighbour, Dhea, with her mom, Aunt Anom, and dad, Uncle Anom (unseen); Uncle Is, you can see his lavender cloth; Om Dennis, Merlyn's dad; Merlyn (blue polo) and her brother, Rian (green polo). 

Well, we wouldn't have three celebrations in a month, would we? So my parents and my sister blowed the candles together. Make some wishes!

For the present, I gave Mom my painting, titled Mother, in the Market. Earlier she said that she loved it and that was why I gave it to her. It was actually an Art class project, but Mas Fahmi (my art teacher) told me that I could keep that and was very supportive when I told him that I was going to give it to my Mom. Mas Fahmi helped me a lot in finishing it. My sister act as the financial supporter (well every artists needs a patron). 

Happy 47th birthday, Mom!

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Somehow, I think it was really sweet. Perhaps it was caused by my emotional transformation in this twelfth grade. As I left my usual business at school and had more time with my family, we grew closer and I found our loveliness that I used to put aside... This is another story, though; but one thing true, like how my bestie Arnest said, these are my family and no matter what happens, I will always love them...

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Happy birthday, Sister. Happy birthday, Mom. Happy birthday, Daddy. And may us all keep being together, until the earth is our sky and we breathe God's heaven.

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Someday, Today.

 One day, that "someday" will be "today". :') | Tweeted December 15th, 2012.

I won't lie. I never satisfied of things I have got and always wanted for more.

I just can not stand it. Everytime I see those photographs, pictures... it reminds me of how I wanted so much to be like them. I just can not stand it to feel envious everytime I see people achieve more than I do. Got their names credited in fashion photographs. Got their face printed on the magazine covers. Got their name headlined in a lifestyle magazine. Got their artwork published in the blog.

I want to be like these people I admire... These people, who accidentally, so close to me in the real life. Sering kehidupan kami bersinggungan dengan cara yang unik. Saya mengenalnya dan ia mengenal saya. Namun, kami berbeda. Mereka berhasil achieve many things that I would also like to do! Mengapa saya tidak? Apakah saya kalah dengannya?

I know I can do those things, too. But why couldn't I? Why didn't I get the chance?

Some people told me to be gratituous. Well I am being gratituous. For all the good things happened in my life: menjadi sutradara Antigone; diberi kesempatan siaran di Zona Pelajar dan bertemu so many great individuals; memiliki banyak teman di sekolah and have my voice listened; bisa mendesain secara profesional and being paid... (I am so sorry, but honestly I don't even try to brag). These are my achievements and I am totally thank God for giving me these.

But what is life if you only stucked in a place and never moving forward? Saya tidak akan berbohong. Saya juga ingin mencipta banyak hal. Make some paintings. Write some novels. Shoot some photographs.

Saya berpikir, masalah saya sekarang justru karena saya dream too big. I just read a line in a magazine, "Start simple, start small, but start now." While I don't know whether today is a good day to start. But do I have time? People keep telling me, "Study. Study. Study."... My bestie told me to be focused on the exam because there is no time; my teacher told me that I still have plenty of hours to make some art. Whom should I trust? 

Well, you can almost say, "It all depends on you. Can you do two things at once?" While I do not even know my ability. Could I? I need to be convinced. Because I want to start now. Orang-orang selalu berkata, mulailah selagi muda. Saya masih muda dan saya mau memulai. Saya hanya berharap diberi some courage to start today.

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Resolution time: I need to convinve myself to be braver and take some risk. Well, maybe I will not found any empowerment from my friends, but I know I will have courage from God. To start, to progress, and to achive.

Let's make "today" becoming that "one day".